So like I'm not hosting scanlations or anything anymore, and this is late as hell, but fuck it, let's ramble.
Needless to say a ton of spoilers below.
This chapter I wanna talk about Hato and Sue a little.
To put it bluntly, I don't think Hato's going to stop crossdressing and BL just because he said so. It's iffy but possible in the terms of the story itself, but if you look at it from a more meta sort of perspective, I find it highly unlikely that a mangaka who's previously drawn about topics like teen pregnancy and single parenthood and infidelity and failed relationships would build this up for thirty chapters just to say "Well the obvious answer to having a socially unacceptable hobby is to acknowledge that it's weird and stop doing it" at the end of it. I mean, seriously.
Also, I thought it was pretty neat how Hato's stand was the cause for Sue finding the MadaHato art, and how it was referenced within the story. "A part of me was hoping that someone would stop me," Hato says, and we suddenly remember that Hato's stand has repeatedly insisted that she's also him, despite Hato's own insistence to the contrary.
I think that in a lot of ways that Sue was the focus of this chapter despite Hato's part in it. It was pretty cool how she dropped character and spoke in English, even if it was only inside her head. We know that Sue has been using her own status as a wacky foreigner to do things that'd be considered socially unacceptable for a Japanese--honestly, a lot of the stuff she does is only okay because there's the sorta feeling of "Oh, Sue, you silly goose" with a smile and a sigh and a shrug going on in everyone's minds (including the reader's!), which itself is only accepted because Sue is blonde and has blue eyes, even in the context of a manga where everyone's reactions and emotions are exaggerated for the sake of telling a story.
Madarame, for instance, pretty clearly buys into the Sue is Just Naturally Weird thing, because the way he reacts around her makes it obvious that he sees her less as a girl and more of a strange lifeform who is even more unknowable than the fabled girl--and bizarrely this is more comfortable to him.
I like how it's been hinted recently that Sue's antics are deliberate and not just the way Sue is naturally, from Ohno's comment that Sue is actually a quiet girl and something of a loner. It lends more weight to her defense of Ogiue to Nakajima earlier on in chapter 64 in retrospect, because it took a lot out of her, even more than we knew back then.
Thing is, I feel that Sue herself might even have bought into it her own act a little, and this chapter is her really realizing that for the first time.
Part of it is like Yoshitake implied last chapter: It was fun for a while, but only while things were still believably in the realm of fantasy, at least enough to joke about. Things have gotten increasingly serious and therefore uncomfortable as of late as Hato's other personality takes the reins. I wouldn't call it homophobia, per se, but there is the definite worry in everyone's minds that Hato might be on the verge of attempting something he'll regret, since Madarame himself has never shown himself to be anything but straight.
Everyone, that is, except for Sue. Like Hato's said, Sue's been the most ardent shipper of HatoMada so far and I think that to an extent, she's sort of fallen into the same trap that Hato did. That is, she lost sight of the fact that they're people in favor of the fantasy. In Sue's case it's not nearly as bad as it was in Hato's, but I do think that she forgot that a little, perhaps partly because she does want Madarame to be happy and she honestly thinks he should move on--it's just that to her as a fujoshi, Hato is a viable option for moving on, while in reality he's most probably not.
When she sees the MadaHato drawings, though, things change. The HatoMada drawings represent the fantasy, which Hato himself is fine with showing to Sue, and Sue looks at them without turning a hair. But the MadaHato drawings, especially with Hato crossdressing like he does in real life, represents reality, which at this point Hato himself is already thinking of something to be ashamed of (which is why he hides it). Sue instinctively realizes that as well.
When she thinks in English, I think it's more than Sue breaking character. It's Sue breaking out of her character. She's realizing that for Hato, this thing is very much caught between reality and fantasy, and that even Hato himself doesn't know what he wants.
And perhaps, if I were to extrapolate outlandishly even further from an already tenuous position, I might even say that perhaps she'd already labeled him (perhaps unconsciously) as gay because of his fudanshi interests, and never stopped to think that he himself was really struggling with his own worried regarding his sexuality. And that's why she's continuing to be so bummed about it even after Hato goes "back to normal," because of her own blunder.
And yeah, I think about this sort of thing way too much, I think I'll shut up before I make myself look like even more of a loon.